Oh god thank fucking christ.
I usually don’t reblog these, but I feel like some of my followers could probably use the reassurance. I definitely have these kinds of thoughts sometimes.
so i’m not crazy for randomly thinking such thoughts? what a relief!
Edgar Allan Poe had a name for it too: The Imp of the Perverse. he compared the impulses to a demon that urges people to do the wrong thing simply because it can be done
The compulsion to jump from high places is called “l’appel du vide" in French. The call of the void. I think it’s specific to that one instance, but I think it’s a cool phrase for this phenomenon in general.
I think about this with random sharp objects laying around, too. “What if I just jammed this into my eye or throat right now? … oh god WHAT.” Just… fucking christ, brain. Don’t.
Reblogging this again because most people don’t/never know how normal these thoughts are, and that can be a major source of stress. It’s okay. You’re okay. Just, you know, don’t follow through on that shit.
My understanding is that it is one of the ways our brains flag danger and help us recognize reasonable ways to respond to it (or come up with new and more exciting ways to react without having to actually be IN danger.)
It happens with a lot of other things, too, not just stuff that’s violent or dangerous.
30 Day Challenge // Day 23 // Something That Makes You Happy
I’ve learned how to cook since I moved out to California. It’s therapeutic. And delicious~ I garnish everything with a fried egg, and I never regret it.
Hahahaha, it’s funny because she won’t get the job, since she is overqualified, and young part-time workers are cheaper.
Anyone who thinks our generation are lazy, unambitious layabouts… need to fucking lay down and die.
The harsh reality is that we are over-ambitious. We are told we can’t get anywhere without a good college degree, so we study hard, and learn all we can, and walk away with a piece of paper and skills to back it up… then we fight to break into a workforce that is already filled.
Every year more people graduate college, and the competition keeps mounting. There are a finite number of jobs, and the big-business fat-cats are cutting every corner they can to get away with NOT hiring new people, in order to maximise profits for themselves.
Then there’s the other problem of people having to work MULTIPLE jobs to support their families. Because they’re not paid enough to live on just one, they need to work three jobs to make ends meet - and that means two more jobs are filled by one person.
I’m not saying it’s “greedy” to work multiple jobs - I’m saying it’s disgusting that people are paid so little in them that they need to.
How are we supposed to get jobs when the job market is so limited - there’s not even enough work for everyone to have ONE job, much less two or three.
And the people who maintain the unemployment system have no idea how bad it really is - because they’ve had their jobs for twenty fucking years or more.
The only big company I know of that hired a graduate from my college did so because he invented a system that would cut their work down by almost 50%. That is what you need to do to get a job around here.
I have applied for every job I am qualified for.
I have applied for jobs I am almost qualified for.
I have applied for entry-level retail and fast-food jobs.
I have gotten nowhere.
And now I have the added bonus of being unable to work much at all due to my health issues. The irony of this is that I will be better off on disability - I will have the freedom to stop searching for dead-end temporary jobs, and be able to take the time to work on my own games and such. Albeit slow and in small bursts.
Also, employers want relevant experience, even for entry level jobs. Most job postings for waitressing require 2 years minimum of waitressing experience. I’m not even talking about fancy restaurants, I mean bussing tables in a pizza bar.
The problem of breaking into the job market at all is something seriously fucked up. No-one wants to hire an 18 year old when they can hire a 14 year old for the bare minimum. No-one will hire a 21 year old who is legally required to be paid a full adult wage if they can get anyone younger.
Getting into university was so important that I couldn’t even consider paid employment until finishing year 12. When I started applying for entry level fast food jobs at age 17? Rejection after rejection. If I got any feedback at all it was “Sorry, you don’t have any relevant experience” or ”We can’t know you’ll be able to cope with the work, since you’ve never worked before.”
AH, yes! How did I ever forget to mention the “experience barrier” - everyone trying to break into a job has to contend with this.
They want to take on someone with lots of experience - 2 years, 4 years, sometimes 6 or more.
I see things like “4 years, and you must have worked on at least Multi-Million Dollar Film, or AAA Game.”
Now how on earth am I going to do that if I can’t even get my foot in the door at fucking McDonalds?
And you know why they can put “2 years minimum experience” on their ads? Because there are plenty of people out there looking for those jobs with 2, 4, 8 years of experience in that role who need a job desperately.
If you want to work, you basically have to know someone in the company. If your parents run the joint, you can get in there, and get that experience. My sister has no trouble finding work now, because she has a couple years of experience - she got her first job through a combination of lying, and making very good friends with a number of people who worked there, by going to parties.
She barely made it through tenth grade.
I graduated 12th grade and college.
She has a job.
The system is broken, and only maintains a broken status quo. It puts barriers up to the outsiders, and puts minimal value on the insiders.
Humans are expendable assets - if they fire you, there’s a queue of people waiting to do your job.
Then there are places that exploit internships.
Some companies bring students in to work for a month for free - the old “pay you in experience” trick. Problem is, they’re not giving you the level of experience you need to secure a job, and there are dozens more students and graduates who want to get those unpaid internships, So they can just keep getting work from desperate students and grads for free.
It’s like all those artists who get asked to do something “for the exposure” - the exposure is an empty promise, and they really just want you to work for free.
The big CEOs want to keep their billion-dollar bank accounts floating. And they don’t care who has to suffer and die for that to happen.
If you wonder why so many young people are trying to make a name for themselves on the internet - “social media stars” and whatnot - it’s because it’s about the only chance we have to do something and be noticed.
We now have platforms where we can put ourselves out there, and try to make money based on our talents.
Is it a long-shot?
But it’s about the only chance we have.
Uuh… it’s hard to explain, it’s a burden that just appears out of nowhere and fucks you up for days. Ignoring it is not easy. It takes over you and even tends to distort your perception of reality turning it into a living nightmare. It’s awful and terrifying.